MY LETTER TO FEAR

Dear Fear,

“I had to let you go.” 

Even though my heart and head often told me I could accomplish my dreams, I gave you the final say. Even in the smallest consideration you seemed to know me better than I knew myself. I trusted that you knew the outcome even though I had yet to test and develop my own grit. And even when I mustered up enough courage to pursue an idea, I chose to bring you along for the ride and doubt myself every step of the way. Despite getting to a certain point in life you still prevented me from seeing the tools I had already gained from my experiences. You convinced me that I would fail and prevented me from seeing that failure equaled growth and would teach me my most powerful life lessons. You convinced me that I could only take the first step as long as I had a complete map of where I was going. You ruled my life. I stood by waiting for permission to explore the deepest parts of me; to run after all of my ambitions; and to understand the world from a different vantage point, outside my comfort zone.  

But there came a day when I decided to do something different. I chose to believe in the unknown; to trust the process, no matter the outcome. I chose to believe  that I would accomplish whatever I put my mind, heart, and soul into. And on that day, I realized what scared me the most was not that I would fail but that I would never see the change that I was born to create. 

Fear, you were wrong and always have been. So, I had to let you go. 

I write this letter to say thank you. 

Thank you for being there whenever my purpose seeks to show me the way. I now see that if my ambitions don’t scare me they simply aren’t big enough. 

Fearless,

C.S.